Alternative modeling is more like acting. Playing different characters, each moment of their lives, frozen in time. It's funny, the photographer remarked how the camera visibly shows when I stopped playing the character, looked blank, or even nervous that we might be caught while I was wearing little more than a black cloak.
Somethings I did, I will never do again. Some of the pictures, and things he asked me to do for them, are just not who I am, and I will never push myself to do those things again. I hate those particular pictures of myself and I hope they never see the light of day. I looked at them, and felt trashy, nasty, filthy, and I wished I could take my heart out and dump it into a vat of degreaser. But the purpose of the shoot was to push me as far as I could, and I really wanted to see what I was capable of, and how open I was.
I also learned that the human body is an incredibly beautiful thing, and the nude form doesn't always have to be sexual. It can be artful, enchanting, and beautiful. Some of the pictures are such portraits of the soul that it's enchanting.
In a sense, Thursday, I bared my entire soul to the camera. I made myself vulnerable. Perhaps that's why I look so terribly frightened in some of the shots. Because I know that the entire world is looking in on a pathetic, nineteen year-old gay boy for who he really is, and not the strong, bratty, giddy man he pretends to be.
-SS
ps. Chris, you rock my world and spin me around.
PPS. Love to Dozy, and Izzy.









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Con/ Cosplay Schedule! ( I prolly spelled that wrong...)
GEEKKON 2009- October (I believe it's the 25th?)
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*SUIGETSU HOZUKI
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ANIME CENTRAL 2010- May14-16 (i think)
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A German Antichrist Jesuit cannibal god!
Chrono Corps Member # 14
Sorry I just found out.
I thought it was a good adaptation, a little to guerrilla style in my opinion for being based on your work, but interesting and fun nonetheless.
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A German Antichrist Jesuit cannibal god!
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"You were a terrible clown! Your balloon animals were pathetic! Anyone can make a giraffe!"
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"I refuse to believe that that poorly crafted piece of cat-wood is 3000 dollars."
thank u for the fave.
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